Hello. I decided to do for everyday or so an englishpost and a germanpost. This is caused by Zauberfeenpferd who wouldn't read my englishposts :D Here's my advent calendar content for today : It's Granatapfel-Schönheitsdusche| pomegranate-beauty-related-shower :D I love pomegranate. I love to pick the pomegranate in its little pieces :D and eat them of course :D They burst so fine and the juice is really lovely <3 I'm a freak xD But I already said that^^
So..maybe a little poem again.. Maybe..If I can think of something..
It's winter-time. It's couples-time. It's chimney-time. It's time for us to be together. Everyone. Getting together. But I walk alone. In the snow. I feel cold. Sometimes. I want to just stop and never move again. Sometimes. Or maybe just until the spring comes and warms me up. Sometimes.
Okay this is not a poem xDD But it's kind of poetry I think :D Or maybe just me freaking out ;)
You broke my heart in many pieces. That's when my loneliness increases. I thought you were the one for me. But now I have to admit there never was any "we". At first I wanted to have you back. Everything just seemed to be painted black. Then I tried to live without you. Did a review. And what I saw I can clearly say: There was not one day I regret loosing you for you for you were just too much weight. For both of us to take. Fe me to take. So it's better than before and for changing it's too late. I will live. Without you I can breathe. *Another sick rhyme xD* So now it's you and me. And never will be "we".
So. Tonight I'll try out some poetry again. You know..it's kind of hard in English xD but I'll try my best :)
Why is there always a dark shadow somewhere? Why can't there be only sunshine? And if it seems to be like only sunshine why are we searching for the fly in the ointment? - proverbial - Why has there to be good and bad? Why always differing? I mean..sometimes you just can't differ between good and bad. Why is always something missing? Why can't we just live along happily together? Why are we addicted to others? To the feelings, thoughts, action of others? Why can't we be ourself enough? Why has there always to be someone?
And what about the "soulmate"? Is it true? What is true? Is there more than one soulmate out there? If not I would find it very depressing! Imagine..Somewhere in the world there is only one person. What if we never meet? What if we don't recognize ourselves in the meeting-moment? Chance missed? Try it in another life? And do I really wish to meet my soulmate? A person who thinks the same things as myself, a person who knows always exactly what I mean, what I think, what I do. A person who is really me. Or is the soulmate the "missing part"? The totally contrast to myself. Always completing myself. So if I never find my soulmate I'll never be complete? What the heck did god - or what ever there is - think to just let us plump down here? Where is the sense in that? Is there any sense at all?
I wish I could fly Touch the sky I wish I could be free I wish I could be me I wish I could answer some questions I wish someone would have some suggestions *I know that's a sick rhyme :D* I wish life would be more easy I wish I wouldn't feel so breezy When I think of tomorrow When I think of the maybe upcoming sorrow I wish I could be happy all the time I wish there was someone to call him mine I wish someone would hold me and make me see: "What's wishing for? Just go and be free!" I wish I could fly I know someday I'll touch the sky.