02.12.09 - Twickets...ehr...Pouches.

Yipieh. I just found out my mum made me an Advent calendar :D
I didn't realize this yesterday so today she wrote me to look for my pouches. Yeah pouches :D I really like them. They're cute :D
And to clone Zauberfeenpferds thought I'll take a foto of it xD
- Please visit Zauberfeenpferds site -
And Slina told me in here blog about the twitter-calendar-thing-winning-and-so-on :D so thanks ;)
- Please visit Slinas site -

Was my Day 1. Did open it today :D Yummi :)
So this is today. Day 2. A heart. A little pillow to hang somewhere looking like a heart. :D
Thank you mum <3

Dear God What Is That Thing.
A little scene from "The Princess Bride" a film I really adore. Funny scene xDDD
I think. But there are more funny scenes.
The Battle Of Wits.
Also funny scene. I like it :D likyliky xDD

And here's something funny, too. I saw it on Ehrensenf today in Youtube :D
Emo Heroes.
Cute little heroes you better not depend on. Cute little heroes who got to deal with their own problems first :D

So..today wasn't so fine. I don't like school anymore I suppose.
I hate to get up early for school. I hate being in school. I hate..uhm..no..I don't do homeworks a lot..I don't lear a lot.
I always thought 12th grade would be difficult.
But it's lame! Sort of. I catch myself not caring for school. And I don't know what's going on. With me. Not with school.
I mean..I really really don't do a lot for school and I really really didn't learn..a lot..^^
And I still got good marks..no..some of my marks are the best you can get. 15 points that's better than mark 1! And I already got two of them..ö.ö without learning..a lot..
It sucks! It really really sucks!
I don't care about anything at all I could think.
I mean of course I care about something even in school..but..
I could say school's boring but that's not exactly what I mean..I don't know..it's just..wäääh.

I need holidays. Truely!
I feel depleted.
And I don't even know why because I didn't do..a lot..*chranythingchr*
Ahrg!
I just want to go to bed and stay there for like a month.
Maybe even a week would do. But I can't.
I even thought something today what's really sick..Liesken knows what I'm talking about -.-*
Can someone please make me care more about something..serious! I need to care for school.
I mean..looks like I get good marks anyway xDD but I want to want to go to school! I really want to want!
Has someone an idea?
It's not only school..it's also my life outside school.
I DON'T CARE!
COULD SOMEONE PLEASE STOP ME?

I feel sick.
I fell like I got circulation problems.
The whole day I feel like I'm sick.
I have to sleep..
I think I'll go to bed. I even shunted work to tomorrow. Right after school so I can go swimming with Zauberfeenpferd just when I'm ready with work.

Could some please stop me from not caring?
I'm doing it again.
I don't care about..
I mean..sometimes I care about things I like as swimming and so on. But..really care about something? No.
I can truely say - please my friends, correct me if you think I'm wrong - I don't care about anything right now.
I don't know whats life good for.
I don't know whats school good for.
I don't know what I'm good for.

I'll go to bed now!

Hopefully write to you tomorrow.
Hopefully care about something till then.
Hopefully got away from my depressive thoughts.

Hopefully.

Yours not-caring-Taboea(child).